Looking your Lack in the Eyes

When you stand in front of the mirror, what do you see looking back at you? If I had to guess, the first things that you notice about yourself are things that you are not fond of. “I wish _____ looked different.” “I am too _____.” You fill in the blank. While physical appearance is a constant tug of war for me, the real battle is internal. If I were able to view the reflection of my inner self, there is no doubt that I would point out negative characteristics first. In fact, it would probably take a while to reach the positive elements of who I am.  

Most of the time, when I think introspectively, what I see is lack. 

Over Labor Day weekend earlier this semester, my grandmother found two notes in an old box she had pulled from storage. The first note was “22 Reasons why I am not Enough” and the second was a rebuttal letter from my mother titled “22 Reasons and More why you are so Enough and so Beautiful.” For whatever reason, the concept of being “enough” has always been a struggle for me. 

When I see myself, I see the many mistakes I have made.

I see the fear that I hate that I struggle with.

I see my fluctuating mental health.

I see my shortcomings as a friend, daughter, and roommate. 

I see so many things that are not encouraging or uplifting. I see every imperfection written into the fabric of who I am, and I wrongfully conclude that I will never be enough. But here is the thing: we do not have to be perfect in order to be enough. Every day we mess up, and yet, Jesus still chose to take our place in the grave. 

…the Creator of the universe looked generations ahead, generations back, and in the present simultaneously and saw that you were needed. 

When we compare ourselves to others we may not be the best at x, y, or z, but I assure you that we are very much enough for the purpose that God has given for our own lives. One of the coolest things ever that I like to sit and ponder on is that the Creator of the universe looked generations ahead, generations back, and in the present simultaneously and saw that you were needed. 

Ephesians 2:10 says, “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”

God saw that you were necessary and crafted you just as you are—fully aware of all of your prone-to struggles and shortcomings—with a purpose in mind. No part of you was a mistake. All of you is necessary to complete the will He has on your life.

One of my favorite songs, Mistakes by Influence Music puts it this way, 

“You don't make mistakes
And heaven would agree
That in Your eyes I’m everything that I was made to be”

The areas you lack are the very areas that Jesus desires to fill. 

The truth is, we do lack. But the other truth is, it is okay. We forget that lacking is a necessary quality to share the lifesaving gospel of Christ. We may not be enough, but Jesus most definitely is. He carries us the rest of the way. 

Satan really gets me by telling me that not being enough is the worst possibility, but it so isn’t. The worst possibility was dying in separation from the Father and the Son already took care of that on the cross.

Perfection is not a necessary component to receive love.

It is so easy and true to believe this about others, but my challenge to you is to take Him at his Word and believe it about yourself. 

My hope for you is that whenever you look in the mirror in the days, weeks, and years ahead, you quiet the voices of the enemy that says you are not enough and are therefore unlovable/unworthy with the words of the Father who calls us worthy through Christ and loves us unconditionally. Look your lack in the eye and say “you do not make me unusable. You are an opportunity. You are a broken crack in the sidewalk pavement through which Jesus will shine.”

See the good in you where you can, and where you can’t, see the good in Jesus. 

I’ll leave you with these words from John O’Donohue, 

“May you learn to see yourself with the same delight, pride, and expectation with which God sees you in every moment.” 

Trinity Hutchins is a junior Marketing and Management Double Major from Scottsboro, AL. She feels most like the person God created her to be when she is creating beautiful things and caring for others. After Berry, Trinity hopes to design wedding gowns and own her own bridal boutique.

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